Marching on ahead regardless of feelings…

Walked for a five minute warm up before doing some isolated stretches and then this one I thought would be safe for my back. I don’t have a sciatic nerve but when I was in a wreck about 5 years ago, they said one of my discs shifted or something. Anyway, I am trying to strengthen the muscles around my back and work on being flexible again. I used to be really flexible … pushed it harder and just had a better time exercising in general.

I’ve heard from and read from people who lost weight, got back in shape, regained strength and on it goes – that there are times of emotional struggle along the way. It comes no matter how hard I’m trying/working and sometimes even more so when I am doing well. 

It is hard to see how far I’ve let myself go and how far away I am from what I was before. At the same time… emotionally, mentally and most importantly … spiritually – I am better. In those areas, I am stronger, more whole and just more grown all the way around. I must grasp the gold in this and remember that the inner has to be healthy and eventually… the appearance and believed in changes will take place. Whether I see them right now or not… I can know they are on the way. 

Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen. Hebrews 11:1

Every single day… I am staying focused. There are exceptions … moments when I eat something I’d rather have switched with a healthier choice, times when I justify working hard taking place of working out and things like that. What I’m learning is… those times are just life. They, along with interruptions, falling off the ideal or perfect course or whatever are a part of what has so often been referred to as the ebb and flow of life. 

My goal is to ride the current when needed and to fight it when called upon to do so. If I let God guide me … I will end up precisely where I am supposed to. I pray when I do… I can encourage, help and inspire others who are where I was before all of this, where I am now … and where I go through this journey.

Today, I had a mixed greens salad with salmon, goat cheese, tomatoes and red onion and homemade dressing. I saved this from last night and I had the exact same thing for lunch. I know it isn’t exciting but I am trying to break my emotional connection to food and eat to live instead of living to eat. And… anyway, the salad is delicious!

I am getting some sun each day in attempts to glow in a more sun kissed way and less in the … “is that Casper the ghost?” way. The main reason I started this was a result of reading that it could be good for eczema and I have battled that for months and months now. 

All for now. . . 


What I did today and a trail of words to follow…

I have walked a total of three miles today, gardened for 25 minutes, did the 20 minute upper body workout I shared on the previous post and did this upper body stretch

I am sharing a lot of this not to boast about every thing I do  but to: 

* help myself not feel so alone in all of this. I don’t know why … but the few times I have worked to get in shape have sometimes felt like I was running off on my own path. It might be the silence or the strangeness of taking care of me that I mistake for loneliness but whatever it is, I like sharing it. 

* … hold myself accountable. 

*… share for/with others so those others don’t have to feel they are going at it alone. 

There are many other reasons and I had a list of them flying from my fingertips when I started this post hours ago. Now? I am trying to keep my eyes open on the screen and realizing that it is a good time for a long soak in the tub. I think I’ll swish some epsom salts with as many drops of lavender as I can get away with using safely and hope to crawl in the bed well scented and with feet a bit softer than they have been!



Tomorrow marks one exact month we have been moving and settling in has finally begun. There is still a lot to do but three families are nestling in abodes and progress is finally visible. This just to say that I will hopefully have a bit more time for keeping up here and other online places now. 

My healthy living/weight loss journey has been amazing some days and all over the place others. I don’t recall the last weigh in here but I lost to 211 and am back up to 213! A process, a process… an ongoing lifestyle change. 

I have been making very healthy salad dressings every other day or so for some time. I’m still looking out for new recipes to try and tweak but I have a base I’ve had fun being creative with. We have poured this over salads, sandwiches (mainly making these with cabbage, lettuce, or collard leaves and using them for wraps as well) and all kinds of vegetables. 

I need to work on the amounts. I was making one glass salad dressing bottle at a time but we are using it so much for so many that I’ve changed to make two to four bottles at a time. 

I’ll try to share this recipe of sorts with a two bottle amount in mind to make it a little easier. You can probably use half the ingredients for one bottle or double it for four.

Sandy’s Salad Dressing

1 cup OACV (organic apple cider vinegar)

1/8th to 1 cup olive oil (the different amounts are so widely different bec in my kitchen it totally depends on who is eating. For myself and my husband, we use a lot less but some need the extra fat and prefer the taste and texture on their salad. )

1-8 cloves of garlic, peeled

1 nub of fresh ginger

Sea salt to taste


lots and lots of fresh cilantro

Nutritional yeast (approximately 1/4 to 1/2 cup) 

Other spices and seasonings to taste – this is where I go a little wild depending on the mood, day, etc., 

I also throw in all sorts of produce … a mango or two, sweet peppers, carrots, spinach, oranges, grapefruits, lemons, or limes, turmeric, fresh juices, kiwi’s, jalepeno nibs, and more. 

Just throw everything into a high powered blender and blend until the consistency you like best. 

A great help as of lately has been to do more preparing ahead as I’ve learned to do with so many things. I use a paring knife to get all the peel off of grapefruits, oranges, lemons and limes and put them in a container in the fridge. When they get cold, I toss them in the blender and make an amazing drink. 

I also bag or put in containers pre-washed, spun, cut and ready carrots and celery in bags for two of my daily juices and carrots and cucumber in two bags for the other daily juicing. Beyond this, I have a gallon sized bag of various vegetables ready to put right into the juicer for when I make new versions. This is going well!

EXCITING NEWS… our organic gardening is finally underway! So far, we have two full rows of rainbow chard seeds planted, one full row of yellow squash, a full row of watermelon and a tray of … I don’t recall what. 

I will end sharing a link to a juicing Spring Clean that was over but has been extended. I didn’t read my emails in time to do it the first time and probably won’t totally this time but I think I will do what of it I see myself managing. Here it is:

Have you watched “Hungry for Change?” I have watched and LOVED Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead with Joe Cross and several others but the two I listed here are at the TOP of my favorites list! 


I have internet/wifi again!

Hello! I have been without internet since before my last post here. We’ve been moving and even though it is just a path way’s distance from where we were living… it has taken a LOT of time and work to be typing this. 

We lived in our other home from January 8th, 1994 until this move. We are moving into the home my MIL has been in for around eight years but on land she has been on for something like … over 30 years ago, I think! We are packing up a LOT of sentimental things here and trying to go through years and years of things there and we just got the phone and internet service going again!

I did so well until yesterday that I lost down to 211 pounds! Alas, two days of not eating well and not walking or working out can take a toll. Going non stop doesn’t protect one from calories and I think I am back at 213. Oh, well. I will get back on track this week, I hope! 

I’m going to catch up on emails (and at some point, sleep!) so I will keep this short. Just wanted to send/share a quick update to celebrate typing again. . . 

Typing my way to healthier life spiritually, emotionally, relationship-wise, physically and more!